Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Keep them coming

Enduring this chemo is not fun, I will be the first to say so, I wake up more tired, if that is all possible, then when I went to sleep. It is an exhausting tired, a fretful tired, a despicable tired. Takes your breath away, and on days I feel like I am sleeping my life away in my bedroom. It is nice out side an all I can do is just sleep, very discouraging.

I wake up and try to be grateful for all that I have. I do have so much in my life.

One of the things that keeps me going are your notes, letters, emails, calls. I look forward to it each and every day. I love to read the notes that let me know how we met, how you've come to classes, what you make from my cookbook. It is just wonderful for me. My new favorite person is the mail man.
I love the reassurance, the inspiration, the love you send to me. It helps, each and every note helps me to get better.
You are giving me my own words back, tell me I can do this, that I am strong. It is just what I need to feel~ like I can do this.
I have always been a positive person but these past months have tested my strength. I lost myself in the sadness of it all, I thought I would never be myself again. With all your help I am on my way to being better, with all your love and words of encouragement, with all your prayers and thoughts, cards and notes. Telling me how much I mean to you, telling me how much cooking made a difference, these are true gifts to me and I love each and every one. Thank you.
Thank you for being there for me, for letting me know I did make a difference.
This is my 3rd infusion and it is tiring, how else to put it?
I am in bed most days, from the morning until night time, getting up just to maybe eat a little something or just go to the bathroom. It has almost been a week since the infusion and I feel no different.
So each day I know my body is just trying to recover from these drugs, I know I will get better, one day at a time.
Please keep writing!


  1. I pray for you every day Susan. I have attended some classes in your home and have hired you to cater some events in my life. I hope and pray that you will be doing your thing soon. All good thoughts come your way. God bless you, Clint and your family. Diane Costello, Garnet Valley, PA

  2. susan so sorry this is all dragging on so for you. i miss your smile ,your funny stories during classes and most of all that wonderful cooking!!!hope you are up and at it again real soon thinking of you and sending good wishes your way love sally keen

  3. Dear Susan, I so look forward to your entries. You are such an inspiration to everyone!YOU ARE SO FULL OF DETERMINATION AND FIRE THAT I HOPE IT RUBS OFF ON ME. I hate what you are going through and wish there was a way to get rid of it for you. I'm wishing that Spring will bring you health and strength.At least a start so you can enjoy it more and not sleep as much.A wakening of sort, just like bulbs.