As I sit here this early morning, window open to the quiet murmurings of the new day, I realize that life changes, slowly before our very eyes.
The golden mornings of summer are being replaced with the cooler air of a changing season. Autumn is on the way.
And so this past week brought changes to my diagnose as well. With the addition of a liver surgeon came more tests, two this week, a 3D CT scan and then a few days later a call came with the results. They saw more spots and wanted me to have an MRI as soon as possible. So at 8 PM on Wednesday evening Clint & I traveled downtown to Jeff for an MRI with attention to the liver, the order said.
Now anyone who has had a MRI knows that it is not a fun experience. I would much rather be traveling downtown for dinner and drinks but that was not to be. As I lay in that tube trying to breath and relax, I looked around at the clouds painted on the walls and the palm tree rising above my head. They try hard to make it as pleasant as possible and I guess I was suppose to imagine I was laying on a beach somewhere. Yea, a beach with a construction site! That banging sound the MRI machine makes as it takes your picture kind of makes it hard to believe you are on a beach!!!!
The Doctor called late Friday afternoon.
He told me that the tests are very sensitive and that now they see liver involvement on both sides of my liver. He discussed this news with both my Colon surgeon and my Chemo oncologist and now they will put their heads together over this past weekend and call me on Monday (today) with a new and different course of action.
He explained that I will have to have more chemo ... this time aimed at the liver. He didn't have all of the answers just yet. A whole weekend to digest this new development! Oh goodie!
So I did what I knew would take my mind of this!
I gathered the four grand kids and went down the beach overnight. My daughter Tina, her husband Rick, Christopher~ 6 years old, Brandon and Finn both 4 years old and Gavin- 20 months, Clint and I ... off to North Wildwood. Where the sun and the sand and babies playing in the surf took my mind off of tests and diagnose. Where the tilt-a-world and the teacups on the boardwalk spin you senseless. Where fudgy wudgies and sand castles rule!
We had a blast! as the kids called my name hundreds of times and we built sandcastles and buried our feet in the sand all thoughts of MRI's and Cancer melted away in the late summer sun.
I am not sure what is a head of me. Hopefully some answers will come by the end of today.
I am trying not too think too much. Just enjoy each day, each morning, each sunrise and the laughter of those beautiful kids!
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