Wednesday, July 20, 2011

The New Me

Although getting chemo regularly was very difficult, one of the hardest things for me to go through was losing my hair.

No matter how you look at it, the constant thinning, the handfuls of hair on the floor, in the sink, on the shower floor was just awful. Waking up with fuzz just sticking out all over was devastating, trying to get the unruly frizz under control was impossible, my hair was different, at some points my hair was non-existent or resembled a bird's nest!

I used mousse, shampoo for frizz, olive oil, at one point even Vaseline didn't control the ends. I had headbands, hats, scarves, clips, bobbie pins~anything I could think of to tame and control my hair.

Those of you who knew me before Cancer know that I had one helluva head of curly, thick, beautiful hair. I never took my hair for granted but loved the fact that it was carefree, with curls I didn't need to even pay attention to.
Rainy days were my friend, I loved my hair!

As I progressed further into my treatment, my hair lost it's luster, it's curl, it's bounce, it became stringy and frizzy.
Waking up in the morning was a scary experience, I would look in the mirror and see my hair standing on edge like I saw a ghost.

These past few months, my hair is starting to gradually come back, but mixed in with the new growth  are the kinky, frizzy hair of chemo.
I was holding on for dear life, afraid to cut it. I haven't had short hair since I was in my 20's~ a long time ago.

This morning I had enough, I wanted to stop patting down my hair, hiding from the mirror, I wanted to look stylish, If I couldn't have my luxurious long curls, I was determined to at least look the best I could.
And so I did it, I went and had all those long stringy ends clipped off, shorter than I have EVER had my hair!! With the promise of new growth and strong hair coming in I made a choice and I am happy with the result.

I am a different person this year, Cancer changed me in so many ways. I am living more in the moment, I am conscious of my happiness in life and doing what I want to do. I am optimistic about my future but not worried because I realize worry does nothing to help any situation. I am letting go and giving myself breathing space to be me, to be happy, to live my life now, with my short hair too!
Hope you like the new me!


  1. I can only say "absolutely adorable" - I love it!!

  2. Wow! That is beautiful! A very sexy, sassy cut. I love it!

  3. WOW! You look beautiful! Short hair becomes you. Your chemo was a horrid thing but think of this new look as the "silver" lining. You look years younger. Keep it short and sexy!

    Diane, Garnet Valley, PA

  4. you always seem to amaze me. You truely are a wonderful person and your happiness is infectious! My girlfriends and I aways talk about you and what we have learned from you! (lots!!!) Wishing you more happiness and lots of good health. Your haircut is great! You are too cute! Love it! Enjoy your summer.

    Dawn Cassidy
    Kimberton PA

  5. Your haircut looks beautiful. so glad you decided to go short.wishing you the best. I happy that i run into you on monday when you were buying products for your are amazing strong women. have a great summer .
    Donna Valle

  6. A great young look for you. You really do look younger!