A very close friend from my fathers childhood wrote to me to tell me I will be OK, that I have a gift from my father and that is resiliency.
Resiliency is what got me through this week.
How do you pass a week from a stroke? Today almost to the minute I was having a stroke in my own bedroom, there was no warning, all of a sudden I could not do what I had taken for granted for so long. Answer a question, find a word, even speak, it was a terrifying experience.
I came home after spending a day and night in the hospital, I went through a battery of tests, constant asking my name, simple things I could not remember. Yes, they were in my head, I just couldn't get them out.
I came home scared, that it could happen again and both Clint and I asking "how in the world did this happen" We still sit and talk about it. Beyond that, I am starting to fell better. My nausea is gone, the bad taste in my mouth is gone, I have my appetite back and most important of all is that Clint says I have my "Smiley" face on. I look at him and he is smiling back at me, a wonderful sight!
I wake up in the morning and hear the birds and I think, how lucky I am to have another day to feel better, to take care of myself, I am lucky indeed.
I started to take better care of me, I had let so much go, I just didn't feel good, but I did get a pedicure and get rid of all that Fu-Man-Chou hair on my chin, you know, the hair that grows one inch in a day!
My eyebrows looked like Andy Rooney's too, had them trimmed up too.
With this chemo, I should lose all my hair very shortly, or so the doctor is telling me to be prepared. My mom offered to get a wig, something I was especially against the first time I did this, but I gave in.
The people in Media were so friendly and helpful and it doesn't look bad at all. I am excited! (well almost)
I am still very tired and I definitely know something happened in my body, I can feel it. I am very lucky indeed. I still have trouble with words and phrases, just have to think a little more before I speak, which is not a bad thing after all.
I am so grateful for all your prayers and support, you remind me that yes, I can do this, yes every morning is a present.
Thank you for all your love and support of me.
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dear susan, there is a huge bubble of love surrounding you, it provides you with extra energy and warmth. We ALL love you! Sara
ReplyDeleteDear Susan, I'd like you to know how much I admire you. You have always been an inspiration to many people who have come in contact with you. I've known you since your Dom was just entering his teens and sitting in your dads hair salon.You used to cut my son,Stevens, hair when little and big boys got something cut into their hair. Let it be lines or the image of an eagle for football season. I've been to many of your classes. You have brought happiness to so many just by smiling. You make people feel good and want to pay it forward. You do this to people and I'd like to thank you for it.You're a kind person and I'm sorry you're going through this. I'm a better person just by meeting you all those years ago.
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