I am headed down to JEFF this morning at 7AM for my scheduled infusion. I have such mixed emotions today, I know I need to go and I have to go to get better but I really don't want to go. The infusion center tries to make it as pleasant as possible but there is no getting around that they will access the port and start dripping these meds in my veins. I am not happy about that.
I woke up early to try to prepare myself mentally for this long day. For some reason I am emotional today, I will get through this, I know but on the other hand I am resistant to this, I guess it is normal. who the heck wants to be given all these drugs and then be sick for over a week?? not me and that's for sure!
I have been feeling pretty good since the last infusion the day before Thanksgiving, a day or two feeling lousy here and there for no apparent reason, but over all pretty good. I guess that is why I am reluctant to go, I don't want to feel sick, I don't want to spend a week in bed.
Well, I just have to take a deep breath and get dressed and do what I have to do and know I will be OK.
So here's to my day, send me some love and good thoughts, I need them today!
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