I just came back from my infusion. We left this morning at 7 AM and it is now 5 PM.
I am tired, queasy, jittery from the steroids and sick to my stomach. I just want to lie down but I can't. As soon as my head hit the pillow all I could think about was the class last night. TOUCHED BY CANCER ~Cancer and a room full of brave strong people, fighters, positive, smiles on their faces and hope in their hearts. They came for food and fun and maybe a little inspiration. I gave it all I had.
You can be touched in so many ways. A big strong hug, a smile from the heart, a soft pat on the back, a cancer diagnosis, a bad day. We are touched everyday both physically, mentally and emotionally.
The faces of the people in my living room said it all. They are warriors, they made a choice to live in the moment, to live each day fully and to touch and be touched as much as possible.
A touch can be healing, to feel someone hug you with love in their heart is the best medicine I ever had.
I received so many hugs and kisses, a bouquet of Roses with a card that said "Welcome Back" and I am back, back from the fatigue and side effects that I lived with this past year. Back to doing what I love~ cooking and talking and laughing. It went by fast I can tell you that much and came with many twists and turns. When you are in a situation like this you learn, maybe the hard way, to go with the flow. It is too hard to swim upstream, much easier to just let it happen and take away any drama that may come along.
The people in my home last night didn't ask for this to happen, probably didn't expect it to ever happen but here it is and we are learning as we go, as my doctor tells me time and time again, everyone is different and goes through this journey in a different way but we all have one thing in common~ we are fighters, we are brave and strong and we cry too! We do what we can and hopefully listen to our bodies. We are care takes of ourselves and other.
Everyone had a wonderful time, Laughed a lot, ate good, fresh, bright, tasty food and left with smiles on their faces and maybe just a little inspiration to lift them up!
I know they inspired me with their love and support and the fire in their eyes that this is life and in the end it will all be OK.
I am an optimistic and happy person.. I would rather see life as exciting and challenging and enjoy every minute than dwell on the negative .. I love to cook and have my family around .. big family dinners and celebrations are always held in my home.. I have a huge table 10 feet long ..filled with food and family.. I have learned many of my mom's old recipes and try to recreate many of the dishes I grew up with .. I am teaching my grandsons to cook .. they love it! I have a wonderful,happy, loving relationship with my husband. He supports me in everything I do and is my biggest fan and taste tester.. he loves all things Italian too!
I love to cook, write, eat and laugh .. I wrote a cookbook in 2004.. the title? LIVE,LAUGH,COOK! what else!